Change

Do we ever get used to change. Even good change can be challenging. What about change is so incredibly hard to accept? Well, for one, it is something different to get used to. Something new to adapt to or accommodate in your day to day. Every year we have daylight savings time come and then go again. Once a year we get used to more dark or less dark, more light or less light and we lose or gain an hour of sleep. Every year we’re alive something about our mind and our body changes. Some changes early on are ever so slight, while others later on become more apparent. While you are alive, change is inevitable no matter how much you’d like it otherwise. Even though I don’t like change, I like stagnant even less.

I think what I dislike the most about change is it’s abruptness. It seems to push its way in, without asking, and makes itself at home regardless of whether you have the time, or patience, or money for it at all.

Lately, I’ve been experiencing a change in my day to day lifestyle. I’ve gone from working ten hours a day at a remote job to no work. I’ve gone from being employed at a great company for almost five years to no longer employed due to reasons that I’ve yet to fully understand. Having taken me almost two full years of job searching and countless interviews to get this job, it is beyond stressful imagining what it will take, and how long, to secure employment this time. It isn’t that I am not good at my job. I was good at my job. I was so good that I was put in charge of five other employees and instructed to train them to work as efficient and independently as I was working at my job. So, this time around my job search includes the work experience that I have had up to February 2024. Unfortunately, it also includes having to say that I was permanently laid off, let go, fired, whatever fits, and that has been a problem. Through no fault of mine own, other than accepting a position and being in my probationary period, I was let go. Upper management decided to make changes and in some departments, due to contracts being cancelled, all probationary staff were terminated. My co-workers are o.k. sitting on unemployment until it all gets worked out. I, on the other hand, am not. I was just beginning to start saving for a home and newer car, two things that we absolutely are beyond overdue looking for and then purchasing. The changes that I’ve been going through, the what if’s, the adjustments, have been terribly difficult for me this past month.

Not all is lost, I do get an unemployment check every week. Even though it’s less than half of what I used to earn, after taxes, it is absolutely better than not making any contribution at all to our household budget.

I’d like to start back to selling items full-time on eBay, but eBay took my top seller status away because I don’t make money anymore for the site, so until I can earn them a lot of money most of what I am selling is never ever seen in the search. Which is so disappointing to me, but not the first time that I have dealt with it in 25 years of selling on the site.

Even though I spend a fair amount of time creating videos for YT, it remains a hobby. You need a lot of views to make money. I enjoy making videos. I always have–even when I wasn’t making a penny doing it. The videos that I spend a lot of time making, just don’t seem to get a lot of views. I’ve accepted it and have decided to enjoy making my videos and not worry about it. I make about $30.00 a month and get a payout every three months of $100.00 and for now that’s how things are going to stay. I could change it if I took on collaborations, accepted all the free stuff companies want to send to me, and took the advice of some other YT’ers and had click bait titles, trauma after trauma, and added some spicy content or was a much more interesting person than I am. But, that’s not who I am or ever will be–so, I’ll keep doing what I’ve been doing and leave it at that..

Blessings,

xoxo

“Your life does not get better by chance; it gets better by change.” — Jim Rohn.